Throughout my life I have faltered and become distressed, feeling insecure over my mistakes. My inner strength has been weakened when people tell me I’m not good enough. I’ve become very sad and hurt, and felt all alone. I have so much negative self-talk, and have felt small and unloved.
But now, very slowly, I’m developing a stronger inner self; where who I am is not about me, and whether I do everything right. It’s about who God is.
God is my backbone and who I lean on. God is my heart and my soul. God reassures me and comforts me, and, even when I feel terrible, I know God hasn’t changed and still loves me. God is always with me, and my core is strengthened by his unchanging, magnificent self.
I’m not alone. I’m not alone, with my insecurity and my negative thoughts. God stands next to me and holds me up — he holds onto me, and says I’m alright. God holds my head up, straightening me and making me look ahead, not down in misery. Jesus is with me. He’s my heart, and my life.
So much can change in our lives: our circumstances, the way people treat us, our health, and even our feelings can constantly change. But God will never change. He’s the one thing that is forever constant, forever the same, and we can hold firm to him. He controls everything that happens — has controlled everything that has ever happened, and nothing is out of his hands. Nothing will escape him, or ever be missed by him. He sees everything.
When we feel hurt; when we’re inundated with trial after trial, God is there. He’s there even if we’re angry at him. He’s there even if we blame him. He’s there at all times, in every moment, and we need not feel alone or afraid.
Life can hurt, so much, but Jesus sees all of our pain. He died to obliterate every bad thing from the world. His pain heals our own. His suffering takes ours away. Our pain is designed to bring us a greater joy, and Jesus is the source of that joy.
God is my strength. I’m becoming who I’m meant to be because of him. I can’t do it on my own. I can’t change on my own. God is my core, and my center. He’ll keep me strong. He’ll keep me safe.